if you ask.

day 43...

if you ask me if i still love you...
i would say...if only God let me to.

if you ask me if i still trust you..
i would say...if only you did not cheat.

so these are my answers..and i will only love those who loves God first and then me.
simply because.i have done enough sins.therefore i find no reason to make more.

so today.you asked.and i answered.

with all my heart.i will be happy enough if God is the only one i will ever love.

so today.that was my saturday.and tomorrow i will be far and away.

so.people,i hope your saturday is less heartbreaking than mine. for i have had a really long day today but nonetheless i have no reason to not end it with a smile.thank you God for making it in fact a day.heartbreaking or not heartbreaking.

healed.

half of day 42.

and i am truly healed.because today i accept.i truly accept what is written for me.

simply because i am just only a human.and who am i to bargain with God?

a wonderful friday indeed as my eyes are dried over wasted tears.and my heart is free from the impermanent scars.

and to those who have reached me when i was in the most bottom point of disappointment.thank you.

and to those who have caused the disappointment.i forgive you for i am not God.i am only Neb...
and may you forgive me for causing you to be harsh to other souls and mine included.

indeed today i am truly blessed for having a God.

a God that never gives up in forgiving.

a God that never leaves me when i need Him.

a God that gives me life to live it.

and a God who gives me guidance when i most need it.

thank you God...

so today people,have you thank God well enough? if not.there is still time.end Friday well with countless of thanks. :)

Wali Band-Aku Cinta Allah (Dgn Lirik Lagu)

day 42. is a song.and i let the words be my words.



may we all have the best Friday of all. :)

Travis Garland - Fuckin Perfect (Lyrics)

a song :)

again.sick.

day 41.

i am sick.again.

last night i had a dream.a reality that became a nightmare.

please sick. go away.

and please nightmare.go away too.

Neb.you left a bad thing.so don't be sad nor dissapointed.

he cheated.not you.

and if there really isn't anyone for you.there's still God.

please know.He guided you this far.He won't turn away.

please know.

so Thursday,be gentle,for i have a gentle heart today.

cliche.

day 40.

i am strong.i tell myself.i need to be happy.because God wants me to.or else i would not be alive.

why do i cry over the wrong things and not smile over the right things?

so i woke up today.with a smile and some balance of yesterday's tears.

go out and look up at the sky Neb.if He took one of His creations from you.just one.He returned it with a thousand more.

so today i went out to the place of all the souls that have been taken.i visited the father of my father.

and again.death became a reminder.that i will at one point be there too.not to visit.but to stay.

and today i spent quality time with two parents and a sister i rarely get to see.

i guess its not just cliche how people always say,things happen for a reason..and there is always wisdom behind it.

and today if it not had been the awful incident my sister had to endure last night.we wouldn't be able to spend the whole day together from one point to another.even it is such an invaluable moment to others,it is still a moment,and if we don't value it then forgetful we have become.forgetful that we are humans.and we die.and we leave.and what is invaluable today might be valuable tomorrow because it might just not happen again.we never know.

so half of today i learnt,to see wisdom in anything we have to be wise ourselves.if not.you will never see wisdom in anything even the most beneficial circumstance.

so today,thank you God.for taking one person from my life and replace it with a thousand more.generous You are.and forgetful i am.

come on people.live Wednesday like you have never lived it before.there might not be a next Wednesday. :)

to a lost love.

end of day 39.

a talk with a friend made it better for a while.
cries and laughs must be balanced.

i guess i am not upset afterall.apart of me knew that love we had will never be mine.

upset now that i won't be able to recall even a slight happy memory of us.simply because.you have completely changed how i view towards you.

unsatisfied of how i try to justify this sadness.trying to rational what isn't.

so a good friend spared a moment and told me.sadness is sadness even without justification.
sometimes i just don't need to find the right reasons for being sad.sometimes i just need a moment to feel sad itself.

so i took his advice.and i let myself be sad without finding the right reasons.and at the end of today.

with ample time of embracing sadness.i managed to understand why i became sad.

i was upset.
not because i still love you.but because i have loved you before.

i was upset.
not because i was cheated by you.but because i gave my truthfulness to you.

i was upset.
not because you found someone else at a brief period.but because i spent too long to realise that you're not the one.

i was upset.
not because you love me less.but because i had loved you too much.

i was upset.
not because i don't have you.but because you had me.and you threw me away.

i was upset.
not because we will not have any happy moments together.but because i have none to remember.

i was upset.
not because all the fights we had.but because you didn't learn anything out of it.

i was upset.
not because you loved with your mind and not your heart.but because i did the same.

i was upset.
not because we failed.but because we knew it will fail.

and i was upset...

because i have put Him behind and you first.
knowing that He gives me life and love to live and love Him first.not you.

so today i learnt.
love is beautiful.it wont hurt you.and if it does.its not love my dear.its just you,me and a title.

so God.you have showed me in so many ways that its not him You have planned for me.and i put the signs behind not foreseeing
how bad he would hurt me.so i leave it to you.the One that holds mine and my lover's souls.

post-script: thank you my friend Muhammad for again sparing me a moment to still laugh.

Tuesday was hard.but if Wednesday is harder.i am a step stronger because of Tuesday. :)

tears.

day 39 is today.

i woke up with a smile.and before i could embrace today.drops of tears fell down.

and i felt as if my heart was shrinking.

and suddenly all the sins that have been done came rushing through my brain.

reminder that i am still a human today and yesterday and the days before.

how i have taken this world as the end point.and how i forgot.that God's love is far better than the love of 6 billion humans combine altogether.

and today.God showed me again.that His creation that i love dearly before,has not bring any benefits but tears and heartaches.

and today.in spite of the heartache that was presented to me in the morning of Tuesday.i felt a slight of thankfulness.that somehow this sinful creation of Him,me.still deserves a reminder from Him.i got it today.and clearly enough.i have loved the wrong creation of Him.and clearly enough before.i chose the pseudo love given by one of His creations instead of a pure love from Him who created love itself.

and the tears that fell down today.were not tears of finally knowing that i have lost that love from that person.but tears of how ungrateful i am and how sinful i have been towards Him.

so.i cried and dropped those tears.because tomorrow i will not cry for the same man again.i will only cry for Him.

a Tuesday full of tears indeed.

the mannequin and the tailor

day 38.was the day before yesterday.in malaysia.

i really got to keep up with the days.

sunday.

was a disappointment.

and sunday.

almost made me become ungrateful.

too self consumed over what i want and i shut the whole world.as if it belongs to me.

and i have just realised what we are actually.we are humans...and that is how far it goes.

we are humans..we are humans..and we are ONLY humans.

in malay.we should really call ourselves TAK SEDAR DIRI.

because we are.

see life like a piece of clothing as a gift.you get it but that does not mean you earn it.

some of us may have worn it nicely.whilst the rest..the rest wore it.dirtied it.and even alter it to suit their bodies.and along the way we cut.we sew and we reveal the skin beneath it.

sadly,a genuine gift that we took and we changed and made it look grotesque to the eyes of God.

and that i realised today.its us.

some of us my lived a beautiful life knowing that it is a gift.whilst the rest lived it.dirtied it.and altered it to suit their wants and their needs.

and at the end.what may be sublime to us is appalling to Him.

and....today i realised. i still don't know where i stand.

if i have cut it.sewn it.and altered it all together.can i still make it look genuine?
how can i 'unpatch' the patches that i have cut that reveals my ugly skin?

now....that today i learnt.if i am the mannequin.what i wear depends on the tailor.
and i am just hoping that the tailor would come back again.and sew the patches i have done mistakenly and foolishly.

so sunday was like that to me.i hope yours was a lot better. :)

lucky i am.

day 37.was yesterday.

saturday went really well.well enough until i forgot to even tell.

old friends that i met.had a few smiles.and had a few laughs.and the most important......
wonderful moments knowing we are still friends.in spite the number of minutes.hours.days.months.years.that has passed.

as we go along.
we realised there are things we need to carry and things that we need to leave behind.and which are the things to carry and leave.it depends on what kind of ending that we are hoping for.

i have carried and i have left some.
and as you grow older.the ending that you want becomes clearer.and things to carry and leave become even clearer.

so i learnt yesterday.what is valuable to our human eyes.may worth nothing to Him.
and what worth nothing to us.may worth everything to let us earn the great ending of a great journey.

so i sat.and i thought.have i carried the right things.and have i left the wrong things?
after 2 decades of life given.

so i sat.and i thought.have i planned the right ending.and have i tried getting there?
after 2 decades of life given.

so i sat.and i thought.have i walked the right path.and have i tried looking at the right map?
after 2 decades of life given.

so i sat.and i realised.i may have carried the wrong things.i may have planned for the wrong ending.and i may have walked the wrong path.

but...

lucky i am.for having a God that look not at my past once i decide to change.
lucky i am.for having a God that is willing to give me a chance.that i might not get.from anywhere.from anyone.
lucky i am.for having a God that i could always rely simply because....i am amongst billions of His creations.


so....why am i not grateful all this whilst? ......
that.only i can answer.and even that i can't answer.

so Neb.open you eyes bigger.and open your heart even bigger.
because if you need to carry anything.carry your faith.
because if you need a great ending.end it by His side.
because if you need the right path.use His book as a map.

great saturday.now sunday try to compete that will you.. :)

how great it is.

day 36.

i spent it wisely for every minute is not mine.its His.

met an old friend.and bought books in hoping i would gain knowledge that would bring me to a good ending.

friday was calm.and i shall end it with a smile tonight before i go to sleep.because that's what this friday deserves.

i realised today how great it is to be alive and healthy.to be able to do things you want.and you can.

i realised today how great it is to have someone to love and to be loved.to be able to feel happiness that love brings.

i realised today how great it is to have freedom and to share it with everyone.to be able to still smile and not be killed.

i realised today how great it is to have parents and them to have me.to be able to feel their love and to give it back in anyway that is possible.

and i realised how great it is to be amongst the 6 billion that God chose to live again yet another day.to be able to see how wonderful the world is and to realise,it is just a stopping point to a better life at the end.

so today.i learnt that.a life is given to one not to be wasted.we all have a purpose.how we define our purposes.now...that depends on us.but if we are grateful creations.we would know.for every purpose we have.its for Him.because if it's not because of Him i wouldn't be able to write..nor you to read..this.

happy coming saturday everyone :)

right and wrong.

day 35.

you crossed my mind.accidently.today.

and i thought of you for a second.

and i said.what if.

what if is wrong.because.what if shows i have not accepted willingly what has been written for me.

again i remind myself.things happen for a reason.and if its for the reason of goodness how can it be wrong.

right and wrong are not determined by how we see it.if its right.its right.if its wrong.its wrong.

so again Neb.having a thought of something wrong.is still wrong.even if you wage it with a thousand reasons.what is wrong is still wrong.

so i learnt.follow what He says.and i shall never find anything wrong with it.because you can never find flaws in His perfection.

so today.i blocked all the wrong thinkings with just my heart.and nothing works as best as a heart which wants to change for a better reason.

so today people.accept we are humans.and we have flaws.and how we fix that flaws is perfection itself.

a great thursday.indeed.with flaws that were fixed. :)
dear friday,may you give reminder.that i am still a human with flaws....that can be fixed.

procrastinator.

day 34.

semi productive day.

and then.a full lazy day lead after.

ungrateful of the hours given.and not spared for even a single effort to bring humanity to a better place.

yes.i am still living that version of life.

easily influenced by even a sound of a wooden creep.

a procrastinator who loves perfection can't survive.

i tell that to myself.but never actually believe it.

Neb.don't waste your time.it's not you who owns it.

so today.i did something.far from saving the world.i just did my work.and that is all.and even that is not finish.

snap out of fantasy Neb because the reality awaits.

so today. i learnt not to waste time.because a procrastinator is not listed amongst the successful.

but do i apply the lesson? we shall see tomorrow :)

post-script : i miss you.dearly.and every day.i hope.i won't miss anyone else but you.because talking to you is fun.and laughing with you is even more fun.

i lead a lazy wednesday..i hope you guys didn't :)

let it be a less lazy thursday tomorrow people.

yesterday.

day 33.was yesterday.

glad i talked to a friend.

those aimless talks.were aimed.

friendship is vague.

not until you experience it will you know what type of friendship it is.

i have experienced many.and the best friendship of all.is the one you can rely on.even aimless craps.

and the rest i call it fun friendship.a friendship that is fun.and the only thing you gain out of it.is fun.it is not wrong but it is just fun.

and be it only one friend.i will be more than satisfied.because i have found the right one friend :)

so yesterday.i learnt.that i am not being anti social.i am just being comfortable with what i have.because comfort is all i need.

but i welcome new and good friends.because 6 billion humans exist for one another.
simply because,God is generous.He gives you friends.and let you choose which one is good. :)

so for yesterday.may you had a wonderful tuesday.for it only comes once in a week :)

soul.

half of day 32.in malaysia.

somebody just died.

somebody i don't even know.

but he died.

and death.has again become a reminder.

how age.gender.race.wealth.health.have nothing to do with it.

because when He says. 'Be and it is' ...its just is.

sad.i am.

for the death itself.

but even more sad.that we need something as heartbreaking as death.to remind us.that we are ONLY humans.and nothing more.

why so?
have we become empowered by knowledge of the world that we gained so little?

or the pseudo joy that we get out of our sins?

or simply.because ungrateful beings that we have become.

al-fatihah to all the souls that were taken today as a Muslim.

and may that somebody.i have not met.and i have not known.but deeply sadden by his death.be in peace.before.and after.



may we have a monday full of reminders besides death.

of legs and brains.

day 32.even if its not.i will say so.

today.i look back a lot at how i used to view life.and how i used to live it.

many flaws were found.and i thought my change would not affect my world.in anyway.

yes.my change did not change my world.but my world has changed me.the most.now.with these different eyes.

i look back.and i see.i have had all those things.i have gone through all those things.i have experienced all those things.and i don't find it joy.i find it fun.and i know less before,how fun does not justify joy.

a fool i am for thinking that the old and the new could be mixed.because the reality is,it can't.because i may have changed but my world hasn't.stagnant.it is.still.
and i am a person who does not possess the ability to move my world to the pace of my own.and i just refused to be in the pace of past.

so.yes.when i see back the people living the same life i used to.i get scared.not because im not living it now.but scared i might live it again.and i don't want to.
because i don't fancy it anymore.simply because,i am done with that version of world.and how i wish my world would be done with that version too.because we grow older and not younger.

but a wish remains a wish.and i figured.its alright to walk.even if you have no one walking behind with you.because the place you're walking to is far better than the place you have walked away.

and i find clarity in world.not being immobile.but moving forward.and walking away :)

God gives you legs and brains.correlate those two Neb and use it for the right 'walking-away'.

have a great Monday everyone.may you use your legs and your brains together.wisely.

food.flat.and song.

day 31.

food food and food.

i had.

flat flat and flat tummy.

i do not have.

and suddenly i woke up with the feeling of missing Liverpool.

and the load of work i have to bare.funny isn't it? i am a procrastinator who loves working?

and those empty thoughts i miss having with you.i really do.

its morning.and its not dark outside.and not cold.

i smile.but somehow my heart isn't.

and maybe its the hormones.woman.yes.that time of month is coming.soon.

but i opened and i heard a song.and i played it over and over again.

and slowly my heart smiled.

ah.how ungrateful i am today eh?

i get the chance to wake up.but all i care is what is there when i wake up.

not the reality of waking up itself.

so Neb be grateful today.and tomorrow and the day after that.for yesterday,u weren't

so God.sorry.and pretty please make me remember. :)

today.Happy Sunday everyone.have fun with your Sunday.because you might not have another one.we just don't know.cheers..

and to all Sarawakians.may your chosen leader.bring you to a better version of what life supposed to be. :)

far and away.

end of day 30.well.almost.

far far away you are.

far far away i am.

but that does not mean i want to just forget.

because my heart is linked to my memory cells.

and each one of it.is filled with you. :)

God thank you for making it a great Friday.

kid.

day 30.

kids are tiring.

but fun.

i am tired.

but had fun.

for every ounce of energy spent to entertain this particular kid.was paid well with a single smile on her face.

a naughty girl i called my niece. :)

may you find a strong faith and a wonderful dream to hold on when you grow up my dear...

so today i learnt.

a kid's world is pure.but nothing is more pure than a person whom is forgiven by Him.

and may one day.my world will be as pure as my niece's world...because i have a great God.who opens forgiveness for all.

hope everyone had a great thursday today :)

airlines.

day 29

today.i am angry.annoyed.and everything else that is bad.

every 5 minutes there is an increase of price.

and every transactions.there is an on hold status that appears.

simply because.airlines suck.

and when i grow old.yes.i am still very very young.i shall not let my daughter build an airline company.if that is even possible.
'so..no future daughter.you may not have an airline company.because i say so'

so today.i learnt to be gracious and not curse like how i would to for this such scenario.because.aeroplanes don't go to hell.i do.if i swear.

the prophet (pbuh) once said :

“ Tidak lurus iman seseorang sehingga lurus hatinya dan tidak lurus hatinya sehinggalah lurus lidahnya.”


God gave me a mouth.for many reasons.and cursing is not one of it.
be gracious Neb darling.at least you can.and aeroplanes can't :)

happy wednesday people who does not curse :)

package

day 28

a great day was again lived.

thanks to those i call family.

good food as usual.the place i was born never dissapoints me.and i shall not too.

so today.what do i learn? besides stuffing food into my mouth?

i learnt life does not come in a package.you add on the package as you go along.

like how a country is.

it is not a package on its own.the people living in it makes it a package.

so Malaysia have good food.and Malaysia too have flaws.and it depends on people like me and you to make it a package as whole.

so its ok Malaysia.even if you have alot of issues..i still love you :)

and i am still trying to add the package.piece by piece. are you?

so today.lets stop complaining what a bad package we have.but start adding to the package so it becomes good and not just bad.

i am sure God gives us mouths and brains to use it more than just complaining.

happy everyday everyone :)

transgression.

day 27.

i'll be nice.i promise.

i'll be sweet.i promise.

i'll be loyal.i promise.

i'll be pretty.i promise.

i'll be there.i promise.

i'll think of you.i promise.

i'll miss you.i promise.

because i love you....

and i want you to love me back...

God.

i really do :(

so today.i tried to be all of the above.if i can do it towards Your creations.i should do it towards You.simply because You deserve more than Your creations.or else.i am just amongst those who transgress.

try harder Neb.

rule.

day 26.

time difference will not effect me.

i promise.

i am happy.again.even im at a different continent of the world.

and i realised.the environment does not rule our happiness.

so.if you are happy.you just are.

so today.even when the environment is at its worst.you are allowed to be happy.and you should.

because.your happiness might just change your world.

God gives us the feeling of happiness for a reason.make full use out of it.everyday.

happy un-blue monday everyone :)

journey.

day 25. or is it 26?

time difference is confusing.

im home.and safe.and dry.and happy.and glad.

make it a thousand years journey.when it is your family you are going to.its all worth it.

so today.

a great journey ended.and a great ending started.

happy whatever day to where ever you are people :)

day 24.

the faces i miss.will be seen in a few more hours.and not virtually this time.

oh how i can't wait.

i do not know how today is going to turn out.but i know i want to make it good.

because.good is great :)

God decides.i follow.but if i try to make it good.i know He is fair in all His decisions.and He will make it good. :)

so today.i will try.will you do the same?

happy saturday it is then people :)

arrange.

end of day 23.

a full tummy makes a girl happy. :)

good dinner with dear friends.

if i was asked to rate today.i would say.11 out of 10.

everyday is a good day if you put good in front of every days.. :)

so today.

dear you,

do not ask me how much i miss you.ask me why i miss you.
do not ask me why i love you.ask me how much i love you.

words.
each time you arrange it.it gives different meanings.
just like life.
however we arrange it.it leads to different endings.

so arrange it nicely.for it'll bring you to a nice ending.

God gives us countless chances.if not grab all.grab at least one.for today.even at its almost end. :)

happy arranging life for tomorrow people :)

scared

day 23.

sunny.windy.and great.

a good friday it is.

today,i am
scared.again..

scared that the bus to happiness land is just around the corner and i would miss it.

scared that happiness is like a piece of clothing on a mannequin behind a clear glass.
visible.but not touchable.

scared that happiness is sparks of light.fast and brief.and then its gone.

and.

scared that happiness is a pleasent dream.pleasing.but never real.

yes.i get scared.like 6 billion others out there.don't you?

but how ever scared i can be.one thing i will never be scared of.

scared that God is not real.because.He is.

and His guidance is always there.and all i got to do.is just find the right way.to it.

happy friday everyone.live it whilst its still there. :)

Dani Shay - "Holding On" - (Official Music Video)

end of day 22

sometimes words can be songs.and songs can be lovely.
so here is one for the world.not from me.but from the 'she' version of bieber.
biebery i call it :)



may anyone out there who needs reaching is reached. :)

flaws

'day 22' post could not be shared in facebook.i do not know why.so do not ask me why.
humans' creations always have flaws.that is why we have God.

so if you happen to be interested or not.maybe.
click April and you'll see the posts.yes.including day 22. :)

state of mind.

day 22.

it is still dark outside.but i still think its nice.and i am still happy.

happiness is a state of mind.they say.
and iman is a gift from God.2.3 billion Muslims say.

if we relate that.

iman makes us happy.thus happiness IS a gift from God.

so if you're happy.dont think its your mind.its God.

and when you do that.you have no reason not to think of Him. :)

post-script: i am glad that a friend far from sight.is still alive.and enjoying it.
so friend.keep on living.i need you to. :)

happy thursday earthlings :)

a letter.

dear stranger,

after thorough evaluation.and research.done

please.do not think that my posts are all for you.because it is not.

i am not inlove with you.not now.and the future? God decides.i follow.hopefully.

so today stranger.when u read this.please know.these are not the posts of my endless love towards you.

u've had it.and you threw it away.far from sight.many years ago.

so please.take note.my love is to be shared to everyone.
so is this blog.

and please.
don't force the love.it might just not come this time.

sincerely,
me.

a person.

half of day 21

it started out as a feeling.

which then grew into a hope.

which then turned into a quite thought.

which then turned into a quite word.

and then that word never grew louder and louder.

it stops there.

today.let us hope somehow that is not how its going to end with us and...
God.

at least.for me.

it happened towards a person.and may it be just a person.

have you live your life half of today great peeps?

if you haven't,there is still time before it gets dark outside.

chase the time.and not let time chasing after you. :)

saturday.

day 21.

coward i am.

maybe not now neb.maybe not.

but one day.that one day will come.and all i have to do is just smile.

cause i know.God gives this for a reason. :)

so today.i learnt to not be a coward to the world.but only to God.

happy wednesday dear 'wednesdeners'

if only tomorrow is Saturday.if only.

today.

day 20.

i am happy again.

today.

5 more days and the countdown is still on.

another windy day.not rather 'springly' i judged.

but wind or no wind.rain or no rain.sunny or no sun.

feel blessed.to even get it :)

i love not how today is.i love that today is in fact a today.

happy tuesday everyone.

wednesday.please come and be kind too like tuesday today :)

Matthew Perryman Jones - Until the Last Star Falls

for you.

see.pick.keep.

half of day 19

to a dear friend,

if u lost your way.
take my map.

if u cry.
take my tissue.

if u'r hungry.
take my sandwich.

if u'r thirsty.
take my bottle.

if u need help.
take my number.

if u cut yourself.
take my plaster.

if u want to laugh.
take my voice.

if u'r cold.
take my warmth.

if u'r lonely.
take my presence.

and..

if u need a friend...

TAKE ME.

because i am still a friend

nonetheless.

so.today.i learned.
God gives you company.in so many forms.

all you need to do is see.pick.and keep.

i saw.i picked.but i didn't keep.



if you don't think this image is cute.
go
eat
shit
and
die
:)

pemalu.

day 19.

i was questioned.

why do i do the things i do now.

simply said.

i realised i have not been grateful.

my answers may not be sufficient for the world.but it is for me.

so world.ask me again.i'll give you a thousand words for it.but would that thousand words mean anything if you refuse to understand even one?

so ask me not.understand me more.

anyway gloomy monday today.matahari sangat pemalu.dan masih malu.

its ok.tomorrow will be a better day :)

post-script : you're still on top of the list.yesterday.today.and may it be tomorrow



if the real sky is not like this.you can always look at photos.life is beyond reality. :)

understand.value.live.

half of day 18.

remarks the almost half finished essay.

promise.i will share.but i can't promise that you will like it.

today
as i go around with words and more words and again more words.i stopped.

what are words? if i don't understand it.
what are words? if i don't value its meanings.
and what are words? if i don't digest it.

i've come to a conclusion.

it means nothing.
so nothing it is for 2000 words of essay
if i don't understand it.
so nothing it is for 2000 words of essay
if i don't value its meanings.
and so nothing it is for 2000 words i used
if i don't digest it.

now relate it to life and not just some random essay assignment.

what is life that is given.if we don't understand why it is given.
what is life that is given.if we don't value the gift of life itself.
and
what is life that is given.if we don't live it.

understand.value.and live. by His ways.then only you'll feel how great it is to just get the chance to live itself.let alone live it. :)

happy living the rest of sunday everyone.make it good..it is almost ending. :)

have you?

day 18.

essay.be gone!

no.i cant makes things go and come.even the most dreadful thing. ie. essays...

so today.what i will do.instead of hoping for it to be gone.i put it close to me.and make it not just an essay.but a good one.

so people.instead of taking time to throw it away.take time to make it right.because the privileges of taking anything away.and making anything comes are only on His hands.

even love.

so today.don't deny love itself.wanting it to go.or waiting it to come.because it is not your hands that make it possible.its His.


today.instead of hoping for it to be gone.i put it close to me.and make it not just love.but a good one.

so friend that i miss dearly.love is not created for lovers only.what we had was love too.friendship.

i have come into terms with it.now 6 billion people out there.have you?

questions.

end of day 17

tired.but still happy.

spent too much today but the self satisfaction of knowing none is mine is priceless.

family and friends.i'll be back soon. :)

today to a friend who is struggling to find the meaning of love and life itself.

don't worry friend.6 billion people are also in the same boat.and i am number one behind after you.

what matters is not the questions we have.but why we even have it.

love is given to us to be felt.not question.
if it feels wrong.don't question whether if its true or false love.

because if its true.it wouldn't feel wrong.

life is given to us to live it.not question.
if we're living it wrongly.don't question why should it be wrong.

because if its wrong.it is just not His ways.

so to my dearest friend and friends.dont dwell in questions.make time to answer it.because He is indeed waiting.

happy ending Saturday everyone :)

calender.

day 17

retail therapy day.not that i NEED it.

the sun is out.and a good day has arrived.

a few more days and i'll be back to where i came from.

and i am happy.again today.for no reason.

or maybe there is....

God.

happy saturday peeps.be yet wiser and happier as the calender changes dates. :)

and if you still do not know.i miss you.

6 billion plus one me.

end of day 16

a path.
to somewhere.

both matter.the path to bring somewhere.and somewhere that matters.

we all need it.i realised it today.

a dear friend is looking too.and so is 6 billion others.

my desire surpasses all that path becomes clearer each day we live and that somewhere.
becomes somewhere that gives us happiness beyond the definition of happiness itself.

so dear friend.and 6 billion people.

mark our path now.for it brings us to a good somewhere. :)

friendship.

half of day 16.

'no.you are not a friend.you are just someone i used to share my thoughts with.

so no.we are not friends.'

my self dialogue for the day.
and i am
wrong.

we are all friends.what define friendship is not how much you share.but how much you care.

so yes.you are someone i used to share my thoughts with.
but you are also still someone i care.

so.
define friendship like how God wants us to.not like how the world shapes us.

productivity kills.

day 16.

sleep less.

work more.

that is not going to happen.so long long-working-hours. :)

yesterday a nice phrase was uttered by a person.

idolize the creator not His creation.

so world.don't you fool me.cause i refuse to be a fool.

so.happy friday everyone.less sleep.more idolizing. :)