long have i travelled. a stagnant travelling where my body is not moving.whilst my soul travelled the world.and after a long travel.its time to come back.to feel the ground beneath my feet.and to realise my head is still under a sky.months ago.i decided to stop.and venture on another journey.it was not pointless nor was it fruitful altogether.and so.here i am.back to where i begin.to realise.that submission to God knows no pause.
so peaceful greetings to all.
after taking a different route.for the sake of wanting to taste the sweetness of travelling.
one particular thing that i realised is that.
the more i try.the harder it gets.
and even though i convinced myself that i have not changed.
i have.
and along the way.i forgot who i used to be.and how people used to perceive me as.
and so.it becomes harder to live a life from a past.and for the future.
because no matter how much i have changed.from the eyes of the humans.
my past actions will still be the key for others to label.
i get frustrated at times.not knowing how to act.because.deep down inside.i forgot who i used to be.
and i forgot that even if i see myself differently.i feel myself differently.others may not be on the same page.
and so.i divide myself into two. a half that wants to be good.and another half that is familiar to all.
no.don't get me wrong.i am not mentally unwell. im just trying to harmonise myself in between seas of people.
and along the way of trying to entertain the world.
i forgot.that its not the world that i should take into account so much.
its God.that should have been the main aim.
and so i tell myself.
what ever world. its not you that i fear after all. its God.
and yes.im back punching keyboards.because.that's what i do best. :)
