lucky i am.

day 37.was yesterday.

saturday went really well.well enough until i forgot to even tell.

old friends that i met.had a few smiles.and had a few laughs.and the most important......
wonderful moments knowing we are still friends.in spite the number of minutes.hours.days.months.years.that has passed.

as we go along.
we realised there are things we need to carry and things that we need to leave behind.and which are the things to carry and leave.it depends on what kind of ending that we are hoping for.

i have carried and i have left some.
and as you grow older.the ending that you want becomes clearer.and things to carry and leave become even clearer.

so i learnt yesterday.what is valuable to our human eyes.may worth nothing to Him.
and what worth nothing to us.may worth everything to let us earn the great ending of a great journey.

so i sat.and i thought.have i carried the right things.and have i left the wrong things?
after 2 decades of life given.

so i sat.and i thought.have i planned the right ending.and have i tried getting there?
after 2 decades of life given.

so i sat.and i thought.have i walked the right path.and have i tried looking at the right map?
after 2 decades of life given.

so i sat.and i realised.i may have carried the wrong things.i may have planned for the wrong ending.and i may have walked the wrong path.

but...

lucky i am.for having a God that look not at my past once i decide to change.
lucky i am.for having a God that is willing to give me a chance.that i might not get.from anywhere.from anyone.
lucky i am.for having a God that i could always rely simply because....i am amongst billions of His creations.


so....why am i not grateful all this whilst? ......
that.only i can answer.and even that i can't answer.

so Neb.open you eyes bigger.and open your heart even bigger.
because if you need to carry anything.carry your faith.
because if you need a great ending.end it by His side.
because if you need the right path.use His book as a map.

great saturday.now sunday try to compete that will you.. :)