Friday it is now.how fast can the time be?
but who am i to say.when i am somebody who does not run for time.somebody who wastes it instead.
last night was full moon.i was out by the sea.and it was nothing but nice.
in spite of how tumbled my world is.the reality around seems to be doing well.
the moon is still there on the sky.still far to reach.but.there to see.and my feet is still on the land of God.
still marking footsteps.but not deep enough to be marked as a point.
oh.how beautiful God made life.even when your heart is ripping to pieces.you still have your eyes to admire
the countless beauty He offered.
so today.a morning Friday was greeted with again a heavy feeling.but the view of last night will be kept as memory.
to sooth the heart that is still healing.
and one thing triggered me to write.one word that came.
a word that made me ponder.how to really define it.
SCREEN.
"A system for preliminary appraisal and selection of personnel as to their suitability for particular jobs." so the online dictionary says.
yes.that kind of screen.
that word made me realise.as a human.we go through the process of screening through out our entire lives.even without us knowing it.
we are indeed living in a life full of screening.
from time to time we are faced with this screening course that marks the point of how valuable our self is in this world.
the process of getting in through a school.a job.even to a life of a person.we are being screened.every single day.
because the world is just a place where people run for perfection.the best will succeed and the rest? will just be left out.
ever wonder why there is such thing as interview.evaluation.exams.and even dating? all of that is a whole lot of what screening is.
we are born.we go to the process of health screening.we happen to be a healthy child.we grow up.we get into school.we have exams.we pass it.we get in to colleges that we want.and when the learning process ends.we search out for jobs.and if our CV is good enough.we get the job we want.and we meet the love of our life.they get to know us.go out.talk.maybe a few laughs.and if you're the one.they'd marry you.you get kids.you live the remaining of your life.and finish it as the way you want it to........and....by the end of the day..........the whole cycle begins again.and again.and again.and again.
and....that is what screening is.you screen each and every time you move a step in life.and some among others..just aim to be the best in it.
but...................................................................................where is all that going?what is the real beginning and what is the real ending?and that made me realise.i need to ponder on this.and so.....the 'ponderation' begins....
subconsciously.without realising it.most of us.forgot the much bigger screening process that we are in.a long process that ends the minute you take that last breath of yours.
a screening process that you are born for it.
a process that takes a whole new mind set and a whole new ways to succeed.
and a process with a complete,fair,perfect screening.a process that marks your beginning and your end.
the only screening that is worth the time.the effort.and the attention.
and that only screening is nothing but the screening of God.
yes.some of us may not have even been to a school.
not able to even get a job.
never met the love of their lives.
never walked through out the process of screening in his or her life that world has to offer.
but still.there is this one screening in life that not a single soul can exclude itself.the long screening process made by God.and to be experienced by His creations.that special thing He created.so that we know.
life is not just about living,dying and in between of that.
but it is an on going experience of gratitude towards the capability of the Creator to create.
and an experience to give back our thanks to His never ending bless.
to that.
we are living.through a far more important screening.a crucial process of to be wanted by God.
thus making life an essential need to succeed.
because.we are being screened by God.not just everyday.but for every breath that we owe Him.
to be chosen as the best among the best He had.should be the only thing that matters.
and it all begins.the minute we opened our eyes.
the minute we made that promise to God.that this life we have.is a period of returning the many thanks to Him.
indeed.we are being screened.
the opportunities we get in this world to always break the distant we have with Him is His way in telling us that He chose us.
but how far it goes.
that depends on how bad we want to be chosen by Him.
and at the end of the day.to even move a limb is an opportunity.
but how and what we move it for,that depends on how much we want God to love us.is it as much as we love Him.or maybe more?
So for everyday that I'm living now it is not the fear of hell that is haunting me.it is the fear of not having God to look at me.and to pick me out from billions of His creations.because.what is more fearful than not having your Creator looking down at you pleasantly.
and this whole post reminded me of what happened just a few days back.
as i was walking in a rush going out from the library.passing through that security machine.and when the alarm sounded.
that half a meter glass gate closed.not allowing me to go out.then only i realised.i have not returned the books that were in my hand.
and for a moment.i was scared.
and if that happens later when i face that gate of God.it wont be a half metre glass gate.and it will not just be a light screening i have faced before.and just the thought of not getting through it made me realise..oh how much thanks have i not returned back to Him.
but still......i sin everyday.in every way.and still....i want to be chosen.
nonetheless.
because people might run for perfection in this world.but perfection is the place that is waiting on the other side of the gate.
so to Friday.make me less sinful.so the hope of being chosen is still there for me to hold on.
and to all. Happy Friday,and may you be among those who God picks. :)
