long long long long long...............has it been.
since i dare myself to write and to speak.
for i have been gone for more than weeks.
not wanting to be involved.
not wanting to be heard.
nor loved.
simply i thought.the thought of myself is enough.
the world can just do what it wants.and so can i.
that.to myself.i thought.
and so far far far far far.....away i go.
dismissing life at one go.
thinking.hey....don't blame me.i am just letting go.
letting go of nothing that i should hold.
and so.making a life change.from here to there.and from there to somewhere.
and so...i go.
crawling out from a deep black hole
with only God's rope to hold.
and a bag full of hopes.
and so............i did.
BUT.
the further i go.the slower my pace.
something is pulling me back in this race.
something bigger than i have ever faced.
oh heavy it is.and indeed strong it is.
my good deeds are not many.
too little to barter.
for a happy life after life itself.
and so the struggle began.
the end battle that i thought.was just the beginning.
far more to face and to fight.
not sure if my fist could hit as hard.
but still i was not born a loser.
and my God is too kind to let me be one.
so why should i submit?
to this short term failure?
to this short term suffer?
when my God offered me.
a long lasting life of sweetness and happiness
if only...........i am patient.for this short term of period. :)
"Only those who are patient shall receive their reward in full, without reckoning.'' (39:10)
