rainy thursday.

it is raining outside. such a somber thursday morning
woke up to the wrong side of bed today.

and i am all sad for no reason.

i am in a really bad state of missing home.

really.

and looking at all the photos of people enjoying life much back in Malaysia is not helping either.

never have i missed home this much.

probably because i had not been so free to think of it.

and now that i am.

all i can think about is home.

call me a cry baby. or a brat.
i don't mind as long as i am home.
closer to all those familiar faces.

anyway.
received a good news.

though i am not in the state of jumping joyfully on the bed.
i still am.very very happy to know.

that an old friend is getting married soon.
to her high school sweet heart.

awh.
how lovely.

i always had that idea.
where everyone will eventually end up with their high school friends.
because it seems that.
everywhere you turn the world gets even smaller and smaller.

everyone seems to know everyone these days.
and its hard to actually get a chance to encounter a complete stranger.

because.
at the end of the day.
one will eventually have a certain degree of connection to the other.

how well we are connected even without knowing it.

and yes.

to a friend.
congratulations for making it this far.
such a classic tale of a guy from an all-boys school. and a girl from an all-girls school.
met halfway.
and now after years ahead.
they are soon to be married.
classic.

and it gave me some sort of chill.
for some unknown reason.

it crossed my mind.
like all typical girls.

probably at one point in life.
before we get to know the person we are going to marry.
maybe just maybe.
we have some how met them before.
a brief unconscious encounter.
maybe across the street.
or maybe a short glance of a passer by.
and simply maybe.

someone who shares the same du'a the minute you are making one.

maybe just maybe.

at one point in life.
we have known that person way before we actually know them.

and i guess that is the beauty of life itself.
all those mysterious  plans plotted way ahead even before our birth.

ah.and that made me love Allah even more.
He is ever so meticulous in planning.
right to the very point .

and i guess.
even though one day in the future.
if im not destined to be with someone that i know back from high school .
having those classic tale of awhhh and oooooo.

it would be sufficient enough to know that be it a complete stranger.
Allah has made it possible.
still.

and nothing is even more of an honour to know that Allah took the time to actually plan my life in detail.

awh.
my Lord is sweet.

and i am more humbled to know that i am under His full dominance.

ok now.
time to look at all the nice photos of food on instagram.
and cry.