mobile.

day 70.

a quite Monday.quite enough that i can listen to my own thoughts.my own blank thoughts.

nothing rare today.except it is a day before Tuesday.and 30 days before a hundred days.

a few more days.and i will be done with first year.

finally.another 5 more years to go.

patient Neb.there's a reason why you are here.and among 6 billions.you are chosen to be here.now.this way.

so today.sitting in an empty room laying on a single bed memorising notes is not a good way of killing time.but it is a way of getting to know oneself very well.physically.and today.i got to know.exactly how the skin of my arm looks like under natural light.and how many moles i have on each arm.yes.i count them.and yes.i find that very productive.

to yesterday i tried.and for today.i failed.

again not productive enough Neb.

TRY.AGAIN.

so i asked myself.what did i do today that involves others?
or simply.what did i do today that involves God?

and i can't answer both.and now.i am going to drown myself in a world of regret.AGAIN.

yes.Monday was like that.and i thought today.i am less sinful.because i didn't do anything.but today.i am a fool.because not knowing the fact of not doing anything is also a sin.

so don't you think if you're sitting down you're less sinful when you're standing.because anything that you do.without God as its purpose.and without God for the reason.then you are simply sinful.just like me today.

sinful of wasting time.and sinful of not doing anything good for the purpose of God.not grateful enough to realise He gave me Monday for a purpose.and i blew it with counting moles.

oh my.with what can i answer Him later for this one day and many days before?with what dear self?

so today people.if i didn't learn anything today.i hope you learn something from my day today.

make good use of the hours given.
make good use of the hours given......for Him.

may i be less sinful for Tuesday..that only if He allows another Tuesday for me.