try.

day 69
is a late Sunday evening.

a room has been emptied.and a heart has been filled.

the ending of a starting is coming soon.and i am beyond inpatient.

today.nothing productive was accomplished in a life of a Neb.again i wasted the time given as if i own it for another thousand years to come.shame.

so today if i was being asked.did i learn anything.i shall say.i learnt to waste time.and i learnt to regret it.

so today if i was being summoned.what will i offer? nothing.because today i did nothing for God.and He did everything for me.

so today if i was given another day.what will i do? i shall again waste it.because today.i am still an ungrateful creature of Him.

so today if i was asked again.will you try to change.and i shall say.today i will.

so for today.i did learn something after all.besides regretful.

i learnt.

i accept myself as a human.
with countless mistakes that i fail to not repeat.

but i learnt too.

i still want to change.and that feeling of wanting to change will change everything.i hope.

so the keypoint here is the word TRY.because try,divides effort and blind acceptance.

yes.you can accept yourself of having flaws.you're designed not for perfection.
but.
never accept yourself for not wanting to try.

simply because...that is what we call...

the acceptance of the blind.

so Sunday.is a start of a try.
and Monday might be the success of a try.
insyaAllah.

so people.did you try anything good today?