the stranger i married.

the other night.

i couldn't sleep well.

my mind became this wondrous land that i wish i would have not visited.

something was bothering me.
but what bothered me more was that i was clueless of what it is.

a maze of grieve.

unanswered by a question that was never asked.


and as i was sighing in the silent night.

i looked to my right.

and there he was.

silently asleep.

so beautiful.
that i forgot  all about my meaningless grieve.

for a second.
life was all good again.

and it dawned on me.

it has been more than half a year now.
of loving this beautiful creature that laid rest beside me.

months  have flown by.

until loneliness is no longer a feared disease.
but rather a pseudo idea.

and yet.
i failed to sleep with ease.

that night.

i don't know what is more frightening.
to leave.or to be left.

but a month from now.

distance will be a painful barrier.
and not being able to see you when i turn to my right every night.

would bring somber to the heart.

but.

it took me a while.
before realising it.

that marriage is not just about having your partner near.

but to still love each other.
even when distance becomes the great barrier.


and what a complex puzzle it was that night became a simple notion.

that.
what i was feeling.

was a feeling of simply missing you.


even.
before we part.

so here's to you my dear
to the one i adore.
to the stranger i married.
may distance be yet another reason.
to miss you even more.

happy-almost-annivesary.
love.