the fallen leaf.

its the last day of Ramadhan.

probably the last of the last i could spend.

again.too soon you are leaving.
breaking a sinful heart.
of an unresolved repentance.

but.
it is just fate.
and may fate be with us for yet another year.

i decided to wake up early this morning.
and roam outside the house.
though i know my Lord is every where.
even in my slumbers.
still.
to remember Him amongst the trees and the clouds is a lot easier.
and so i did.

morning breeze is always soothing.
the green sight of surrounding calms the heart.
and i made few supplications.

and suddenly.
an evil thought came.
'is He even listening to me? such small insignificant creature of His.'

and as i looked down.
at one of the trees near by my side.
a leaf fell off.
slowly.
poetically.
taking its own time before reaching the ground.
and right then i am reminded of.
an ayat of every fallen leaf is known by Allah.
even that small of an act.
He knows.

and i feel assured.
that hey.
my Lord hears me.

indeed.
nothing could be better.
than to fall in love.
hard.
with your Lord.

may He reply the feeling.

now. that Ramadhan is almost over.
i hope a year without him around would keep me sane.
and near to Allah.

one phase is leaving me.
and now a new one is coming.

time is indeed relative.
it becomes faster when you don't appreciate it.
it becomes slower when you mis use it.
and it becomes ample.
when you fill it wisely.

Eid is coming.
which is a sign of he is coming.

i may have lost Ramadhan for a while.
but Allah is sweet.
insyaAllah.
He will replace it with another company.

insyaAllah.

:)