loving Him by chance.

'people don't fall in love by choice. but they do by chance'

and i overheard this once.

before. 

and the first thought that came was. 

' heck no. i choose who i love.and who i don't . so no. i love by choice!'

and so . . . i said. 

but. 

i guess.

such stand over baseless belief will soon take its tole. 

and indeed.

it did. 

without taking into consideration.

that fate plays an even bigger role.

even bigger. 

yesterday.

i was driving pass a very familiar street. 

too familiar.

it became a drive through memory lane. 

and i saw two people walking side by side. 

so flamboyantly like theres nothing to worry.

they are like in their own safe zone.

probably each other's presence is an invisible guard to both. 

a sense of great security.

a sense of belonging.

a sense of loving.

and i stopped over for a while. 

just thinking to myself.

there is one thing that is in every one's rib.

including mine.

something that beats for a reason. 

something that if its not there.

we become an incomplete creation of His.

a heart.

an organ of love.

and somehow.

just reminiscing the phrase.

i managed to relate.

yes.

IT IS TRUE.

and i was wrong.

we do fall in love by chance.

in many cases.

we can't choose what the heart has chosen. 

and if it is fought against the destined.

something that is sweet will eventually turn sour.

humans are designed to love.

long before our existence.

predestined.

that our hearts. 

if not for all.

to love one at least.

a space that Allah preserve.

big enough for all creatures to experience.

a space.

just.

to love Him. 

and without shame.

i have to admit.

i was very wrong when i say i can choose whatever/whoever i love or don't.

because.

how can i.

if i was designed.

to love a deity.

that creates love of all love. 

and.

if we really think about it.

taking an analogy in this case.

if an eraser is used to write.

or a pencil is used to erase.

both defeat its purpose.

like us. 

if we are created to love.

and to love Him.

when we go against what is destined.

that is when.

all sweetness turns to sour.

and there. 

those two people i saw.

walking along the street.

the sense of great security.

the sense of belonging.

the sense of loving. 

actually.

WE ALL have that.

when we start to realise that.

it is Allah that the heart is destined to love by chance. 

and it is only a bonus. 

if He allows us to love His other creations 

whom are in love with Him too.

only.

as a sign of His mercy.

and before i started driving again.

i understood one thing.

indeed.

it would be shameful enough.

for me. 

not to be an eraser.

if i was created to erase. 

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may He grant us all a huge space in our hearts to love Him.

for it is by His chance.

and His chance only.

and may He guide us to the one that is also.

in love with Him. 

insyaAllah.