are you mental?

'aren't you worried? he might be some psychopath serial killer?or even worse. he might be annoying!you don't even know him! are you mental?'

yes.
such a cute caring friend i have.
it has been weeks.
since the last time i told her the news.

and even though it was a relentless effort to somehow knock some sense out of me. (according to her)
i know she means well.

i don't know how else to explain it to her that it was more than just a stupid school girl-crush.
because.it wasn't.AT ALL.
i was never that kind of a person anyway.

in all honestly i don't even know what it is.
and i just find it unnecessary to dwell in things that only my Lord would understand.
because as for now.
what i know is that.

i have fallen in love with Allah.
and.
anything.or anyone.that reminds me of Him.
would only be an honour for me to have them around.

it is never about the individual per se .
that was never the case.


and so.
the only reply i could give to her was.

'well. if he happens to be a  psychopath.i have not a slightest worry in me.i know i have you to find me.to the lubang cacing if i go missing. and if he is indeed annoying , it's alright you have been a good practice for me.all this whilst.afterall.he-he' :)

i love you babe.
and i love the fact that i know you love me back.
because you worry too much about me.
and it is the sweetest  thing a friend could offer to another friend.

so don't you worry.
even if its not him.
i am not losing anything.
i still have Allah.
and i still have you as a friend

and even if it is him.
only because Allah wants it to be.
and i know you will still be happy for me.

and yes.

i am being mushy.
once in a while.

and yes babe.
if you need to print screen this.
please do.
who knows.
i might remove it when i feel a little macho-me-self later on. he-he.