big-miniscule battle.

this made me cry in the morning. 

and the best bit is. it has my favourite ayat of the Quran .

somebody once told me. 
the struggles in the deen that Allah put in a life of a person differ.
we humans are creatures of fade judgements. 
sometimes we perceive one's struggle as shallow and as miniscule. 
without knowing that it is a big battle. 

a sister trying to put a hijab on. 
a brother trying to complete a prayer.
a revert who is trying to stop drinking.
a  born Muslim who is searching. 

or simply.

someone who is just trying to remember Allah even in deep slumber. 

we.just.don't.know. 
how big the battle is.to them that is not shown.

for someone who has experienced the struggle to change.
going through many phases of life. 
in sickness and in health.
in love and in hatred. 

i do believe.
that we should not. 
look down on others.

because believe me.
that sister.
that brother.
that you thought the possible worst sinner.
might be Allah's lover.
in the future.

we just.don't know.

so try and look deeper.
beneath the skin and the hair.
and you'll find that.
all of us are blessed creatures.
just looking for a point in life.
to ponder and realise. 


that Allah.

is there.to care.



'Except for those who repent, believe and do righteous work. For them Allah will replace their evil deeds with good. And ever is Allah Forgiving and Merciful.'
[25:70]

on aside note. 
submission is due in 9 days. 
i humbly request in hope that anyone who is reading this could make a small simple du'a (prayer) for me.
may Allah ease it and ace it.
and may He grant me His redha in  this knowledge.
for here.and my life after.

insyaAllah.

and now.less than 2 months.
i'll be home.
for dear family.
dear land.
dear friends.
and dear someone.

2-more-months-hang-in-there-neb.

just-hang-in-there.