stalk.

day 73

is two days ahead of day 72.

being surrounded by familiar faces makes me want to ignore the cyber world.and today i shall ignore it even better.

so for two days of being 'uncybernised' i find a better version of what a day should be,instead of getting on the web and looking at other people's life.

yes.i am referring to how we spend hours on the internet spending God's time like its ours to own inspecting the way people
lead their lives.but unfortunately through out the process of doing so,a little goodness is taken out of it and a whole lot of banefulness are gained.

and shamefully i am among of those who treats time like it shall for ever be mine and spend it like how i like it.and mostly wasting it.

so for two days that has passed i learnt that.i pay too much time knowing about other people's life and along the way i managed my life wrongly.and i blame myself 99% of it and 1% on the fact of how easy it is to view other people's life on a thing i call the WEB.yes.the thing we love most.the social network.

and sadly after knowing this,i realised we did it not to lessen the distance of humans' relationship,but we did it to create a much bigger gap between us.spreading rumours,creating gossips,training ourselves to be overly judgemental on each matter of other people's, and the most obvious,the pursue in the matters of straw.

and indeed.that 99% attitude of mine is the motivation that moved my limbs,and that 1% becomes the path that lead me to it.
and i realised now,we spend more time evaluating other people's life and we used not 24 hours given a day,30 days given a month,12 months given a year and many years given in a life to evaluate ourselves.instead.

so two days that has passed..made me realised...i have been stalking the wrong things in life.i have been stalking the creations of Him instead of the creator Himself.

and today.my problem is.i do not stalk God well enough and as much as i stalk His creations.simply because i wronged myself.

so for two days that has passed.i questioned myself.

why am i at this position.and maybe why too 6 billion others out there.
a position of wanting to know more about His creations rather than the Creator himself.whilst it is Him who gave me the time,the energy and the resources to use it wisely.

so for two days that has passed.i questioned myself.

why do i get so eager to get to know His creations..but never Him.
so eager to include humans in my life.but never God.whilst it is Him who created me.

so for two days that has passed.i questioned myself.

why do i even spend seconds,minutes and hours to get to know someone's sins when i have mine to clear.
so caught up in judging when i know i am being judged by God at the very same time.

so for two days that has passed.

i answered it with a regret.and i answered it with a hope.
a regret of being amongst those who pays attention not to God but to the things that will bring me further from His paradise.
a hope that things will change.and i shall one day stalk God more.

so people.for today.i shall lessen my attention to the world.and realise i MUST realise.so.have you today?