a choice not to escape.

day 74

is many days after 73.

one journey has ended today.and another journey will soon begin.

i have been away.being from one place to another is indeed tiring.but it was all worth it.

many days of being away helped a lot.in amending this broken self.

so a journey that was planned as an escape became a journey for me to discover that life is not all about escaping.
its about choosing which part of life that you should face.and which you should leave behind.

and many days of silence.taught me well.that i have been trying to escape some part of life so bad that i took not the time to realise i must not escape.i just have to choose.

and after long long days of not trying to be near God,He is still amazing.simply because.His generosity of letting me to choose gives me chance to realise that He gave me a life not for me to run from.but to choose which is the right one.

and now.i choose.

i choose to understand.all this whilst.i have been wanting the wrong things and i have been needing the right things in life.
so now.what i need more is needing instead of wanting.

so thank you God.even though i thought of You so little these past few days.again.You are still your generous self nonetheless.

so now.

in spite of all the problems we are being faced with.all we need to do is.to choose.not to escape.

choose on how to handle it.
choose on how to accept it.

instead of

finding a way to escape.
finding a reason to escape.

and to a problem of mine that is solved.

i chose to need more than to want.
and i find not a way or a reason to escape.

because a life is given not for us to escape.but for us to make decisions on how we want to shape it.
so shape it wisely for it may be the key to a better version of what life should be when the end comes.

so finally.towards ending a journey.
i realised.
to a problem i face.

i have been wanting a wrong guy instead of needing the right guy.

so to the wrong guy that i want.
may you find your way in choosing life instead of escaping it.

and to the right guy i need.
may you have chosen the right life.for i am waiting at the other end.

so people,may you have the chance to choose not to escape.because life is lived once.fill it with great choices instead of great escapes.