the last call.

day 60.

you called again.and i was glad.glad not because i miss you.but because i get to talk to you as how i should to all this whilst.
and glad i get to tell you what i should have told you all this whilst.and i've done my job now.and all i have now is your name in my prayers.and that is how far we can ever go.only in prayers.

i felt sad.angry.unsatisfied.betrayed.fooled before.and i thought you are now somebody's possesion.but now i understand.you are God's possession and i was just borrowing you from him.and now.i am returning you back to him.i trade you with God's love instead.and i hope you would have done the same too.but if its still world you see.then one day i hope God accepts my prayers so that one day you'll find your way too.

and if you have chosen another God's creation over me.then i chose God over you.be happy with what you left me for.because i shall be happy when you are.for i hope nothing but the best for me.and for you.

so today i decided to wait.but not for you.but for anyone that God thinks suits me best.but if its you that God destined me to be with,then let you be the best version of you.because i want to be the best version of me for you.

so don't be sad Neb.you have made a good trade.La Tahzan dear self...

so to Wednesday,let it be the last call.i hope.because you trade my love with another creation of Him as easily as breathing.but please know.i trade you over His love.and my trade is the best.

so...
to a stranger now to me.my prayers will be with you.but pray for yourself too,because i fear prayers from my sinful self would never be enough.

love her more than me.because you chose her.but love God more.because He chose you.

so dear Wednesday..please don't let it come again.i may be strong on the outside.but im as brittle as a glass on the inside.and only He knows.