forgiveness is to be sought and given.

day 48.

is a friday.

the sun is still shy.maybe too soon to tell.

i am awake from a very long sleep.a wasted sleep i would say.because of that sleep.that particular sleep.
made me missed a valuable knowledge slot of yesterday.knowledge of God.that i traded it with a slumber that was filled with useless dreams.

oh Neb.why did you?

anyway.a regret remains a regret.not unless i do something with it.so for next week's slot.i would make sure.i make good use out of it.

so for today what awaits i don't know.
today i am not a fortune teller nor a God.today i am just a somebody that hopes this day would be a less wasted day than yesterday :)

to friday,
a word came across my mind this morning.as my soul returned from a short death.
FORGIVENESS.

yes.that came.maybe accidently or purposely.but it came nonetheless.
maybe because of my yesterday's sins or maybe because of others' sins of yesterday.

so i stood and not sat.and i took a deep breath and really take time to understand what is forgiveness?
is it something you utter? or is it something you do?

do we really forgive? and do we really feel forgiveness?

what and how does forgiveness feel?

yes.we say.forgive me.and you are forgiven.but what does it really mean? and how does it really feel?have we ever wondered?

and today after countless of forgiveness asked and forgiven given.i truly beyond explanation do not understand what it is?
indeed i am as clueless as a monkey this friday morning.

has it been all this whilst we think the forgivenesses we've uttered and done are the real forgivenesses?
and without realising it,it is far from what true forgiveness is.maybe just maybe,there is a real sweetness of forgiveness that God has promised.and we thought all this time.we have had it.and we settled with what we thought wrong.

oh.if only i know how sweet forgiveness is.i would say it.do it.every breath that i take.if only.

so early of today.i realised.i have a mission.a mission to be able to feel the sweetness of forgiveness.
and i figured.if want to taste the lemon tea.i have to drink it.and if i want to feel the warmth of the sun,i have to go out.
so..if i want to feel true forgiveness.i must be forgiving.and seek for forgiveness.everytime i get the chance.

so Neb.if someone wrong you today,look at it not as a misfortune,but a chance for you to get closer to the sweetness of a real forgiveness.

so Neb.if you wrong someone today,look at it not as a unintentional flaw,but a chance to fix that unintentional flaw.


to people,lets give it a try together.shall we? because God's words and promises are not a waste.there must be something behind it.now it depends on us to dig and find it.afterall what is life for if not to be explored?

and
to Friday,may you bring me closer to the real joy of forgiveness.

this time today.lets not just say,and do.lets feel it. :) have a good Friday everyone.