quite surreal yet very real.
how sweet it is to have faith as the link of one soul to another.
and it is truly an honour to have been given the opportunity to share it with others.
i have not done much.
i know.
but Allah in all His sweetness has spared me nothing but goodness.
lately.
i get to really feel to connect to another person with just of common faith as the reason.
though i was drown within the clash of culture, normalcy of my origin and diverse thoughts of the religion since i got back.
still.
in drowning, life itself pulls me out of a deep sea of confusion.
and there.
i was.
speaking.interacting.connecting.
to others.
in a way i have never truly been.
just of one common ground.
we pray to the same Lord.
lately.
i find myself more reserved yet open.
more inquisitive yet relaxed.
i am at this moment.
at the verge of truly understanding the meaning of ukhuwah ( divine relationship for the sake of Allah) between souls that have long or recently submit itself to the only one Creator. like me. in a way.
yesterday , i spent an afternoon with a good friend .
and of long hours.
we speak nothing of besides the beauty of Islam.
a year ago.
i remember.
another afternoon with her.
i struggled to project my new found peace.
hard to explain with words.such limited vocab to explain the divine power of faith.
not that mine was solid. but still. its beauty is merely unexplainable.
and the only thing i said to her was.
'words can't do justice to it. i have nothing but prayers that you may feel it too one day'
and true enough.
a year after.
after a few minutes struggle to contain the feeling of contentment of finally finding God.
she burst.
and words of Allah filled her mouth.
and right then.
right then i knew.
she has felt it too.
hours.and hours.
we talked.
almost about everything.
and everything was about Islam and its beauty.
such delicate soul finding its way to a divine beauty.
and again.
if i was asked to describe it.
not a single word in the dictionary could fit the feeling.
and later today.
i had another chance to spend hours and hours.
with yet another friend.
and this time around.
its truly another connection made.
only so few souls as such i came across from time to time.
only a few who could understand my words.
and i of them.
because most of the time. i fear to voice out my contained feelings of nothing but Islam.
fear to be judged as someone who is being extravagant in faith.
fail in splitting myself in between being a secularist or a fundamentalist.
being modern. or orthodox.
because truthfully.
Islam isn't both.
Islam is Islam as it is.
independent of definition.
or reason.
and i find great joy of every year in a day.
i am blessed to have a date with these people.
Alhamdullilah.
and there i thought to myself.
wouldn't it be nice to have someone to share thoughts and feelings with like i have with them.
everyday of every year.
not just an annual thing.
not to just talk about Islam.
but to actually live it together.
and that became a reason why.
there is such thing as the other half.
because.
in spite of great company i get to experience in a day of every year.
i need the whole 365 days.
there is so much more about Islam.
that this soul wants to share it with.
and to my two lovely friends.
i pray hard.
we become neighbours in Jannah.
(please say ameen)
i don't mind sharing the lawn and the big tall mango tree with them.
not at all.
insyaAllah.
and to whom ever that is reading this.
please make dua for me.
that one day.
i have just the right ears and mouth.
just the right heart and thoughts.
to accompany my 365 days.
of loving nothing but being in love with Islam.
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