to years of life.

helped a friend move out early this morning.

spent the whole night helping her to pack and laughing at how ridiculous it was for her to be all nostalgic about life to a point that she keeps even candy wrappers.

i can't believe she's going back already.
and a part of me just died a little bit .
probably it is the fact that i know that this whole thing is almost over.

packed some of my stuffs.
though i dont have any candy wrappers to keep.
(yes. i am the type that throws everything. i am not good at keeping stuffs)
and it dawned on me.

i am soon going to leave this place.
after many years of being here.

and yesterday when i went to the studio.
i cried a little bit inside.
the 5-year struggle is almost ending.

and i shall take a year break .
and God knows what is going to happen within that one year.

some part of me is telling myself to wait.
and hang around just a little bit more.
and some part of me is telling myself to just go back.
and face life like a man! . . ( ehem!. i mean a lady)

oh dear me.
NOW WHY DO I FEEL ALL  NOSTALGIC THIS MORNING :(

funny it is.

5 years ago.
i worked hard to stay away from a person.
 moved far away for a different life.
and now.
i am coming back to stay near  to a person.
packed up everything for a life.
( naaaaaa. its for the food actually.he-he)

and there i thought to myself.

how ironic life is.

indeed.

and how much greater Allah's plans are.

and how secured i feel.
that i have no one but Allah to plan it for me.

o Allah.
i put full trust on You.
You are the only one who will  never dissapointment.
and i feel lucky.
You let me find You.
and let me fall in love with You.

though in flaws.

whatever that is coming.
please don't let me mind what ever it is.
as long as it keeps me near You o Allah.


and so.
the only nostalgic piece i have right now.
is only my heart.

and may it be enough.
for the life ahead.

insyaAllah.

okay.menangis macam perempuan hilang kasut mahal.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh.

i shall miss you Liverpool sayang. :')