the loudest silence.

you know that feeling where you have so many things to tell.
and you end up not telling anything.

well.ya.
that happened to me just now.
when after months of not talking to that one friend i used to tell almost everything to.

and this morning we finally had the opportunity to talk.
and instead of actually talking.

we kept quite.
and that was simply the best conversation at this moment.
just what i need.


to know that two people are actually going through the same thing.
but of different reason.

and for a person like me.
who gets really uncomfortable of dead silence.
especially when i am surrounded by other people.
it somehow felt just right.
just what we both needed.

a company in silence.

and it's good to know.
i will always have that person .
where i can just be quite with.
my reserved self.

oh how i have missed it.

i don't need to share anything.
neither do the person.
yet.
we can both relate.
and silence became the words of our conversation.
i guess that's what happens
when you really know a person inside and outside.

and indeed .
i have reached that level of comfort.
even in the most dead silence.
with that one friend.

thank you bud.
you have always been a good friend.
may your depression end soon.
and may i have the courage to get out from my duvet.
and open the blinds.

and yes. if not because of my orchestrated tummy.
i would not have realised.
i haven't had anything to eat.
since yesterday afternoon.

oh gosh.
this is not good.

oh well.
i'll find something to eat later.

as for now.
let us all.
enjoy the silence.

:)