10 tonnes.

i miss Allah.

honestly.
truthfully.
sincerely.

i miss Him.

10 tonnes heavy.
10 tonnes heavy was my heart when i woke up this morning.
for no solid reason.
i just want to crawl deep into my veins.
and swim right to my heart.and say.

'hush.little heart.why the frown face?'

i miss Allah.
she says.
i just miss Him.
so bad.

'And know that Allah comes in between a person and his heart' [8:24]

and if this is a way.
just the way.
so that i will miss You in whatever way.
then.
let my heart be 10 tonnes heavy.
for every morning i wake.
so that i know.
You are that something.
that special something.
that comes in between me.
and my heart.

oh Allah.
without this obscure.
consciousness.
i.
wouldn't.
have remembered you.

so.
thank You.
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sometimes.
there will be a day.
even if we are the king.
that owns the wealth and the loyalty of the earth.
still.that foreign feeling.
indescribable by words.
comes to visit.

just.be pleased.
it might be Allah.
wanting  you to miss Him.

insyaAllah.