achievements with no pride and failures with pride.

day 63.

is a story and it begins like this....

30th of January of many many years ago.i was a child.

and with January passing by months ago.i proclaim myself a child no more.

those many years..from a point of being able to take the first step and to a point where complicated mathematics questions seem possible.i have indeed lived through it all...with pride.

and now.here.passing thousands of days from a day of being a child.i sit.in my room
listing down all the achievements i have made..the achievements of many years living a life of a Neb.
with blank brain as my paper and memory cells as my ink.

i missed not one.as it is easy to recall each.
because through each i aligned pride next to it.
and what is better than pride as an indicator?simply because.6 billion out there are humans.and so am i.

so i proceed from one achievement to the other.jumping from one point to the next.
i started with a smile which gradually changed to a frown.

and at the end of the last memory cell.towards filling the whole blank brain.
i realised.i have achieved almost everything.almost.everything.that a WORLD wants me to.
and suddenly that blank brain that was filled with inks of memories of achievements.
were erased.by one organ that is far below the brain..the heart.MY HEART.

and a child no more i thought of me.simply because.i thought my achievements made me grew.
but i thought wrong.because.for each and every achievement that was done and written in my brain.
i put not God next to it.
i put not God in front of it.
i put not God behind it.
i put not God above and below it.

so where did you put Him in all your achievements all this whilst dear self?
you put Him near none of it.
oh.dear self have you forgotten.that without Him. all of those would not be even considered achievements?

so today.i erased all those achievements in life.simply because there are not achievements at all,the fact that i failed to put God in every single of it,it becomes far worse than not being achievements.but it becomes failures.

so today.the story became a lesson.and a lesson should be a practice.
so forgive me for thinking i did it all by myself.and forgive me.for not doing it all because of You.
simply because i put pride in everything.and everything must not be filled with pride.except the pride of God.

so in the end.the grown self that i thought of me filled with achievements became a child who bares failures and far from grasping achievement itself.

so to Sunday,let this child gain achievement not through the eyes of humans.but through His.

and Sunday.let this child remember.the only thing qualified to be called achievement is the the thing that has His name in all parts of it.


so people.what did you write in your blank brain today?