abandoned

day 51.

is a blessed monday with pouring rain.and followed with a sunshine.

i miss you.
where have you been?
did you forget about me?
do you hate me now?
don't you love me anymore?
can i always be your loved one?
i'll share your love.i promise.....God.

basically that was how Monday felt like.
filled with plenty of misses and wonders.

please don't let me go astray again.please.

today,these are my questions.

why do i feel this way? and what is this feeling?


its like having a conversation with someone with no reply.
its like missing someone without a return.
and its like looking for someone with no clue.

and at times i get so scared of being abandoned that i strive so hard to let Him notice that its Him that i chose.
i know its never enough.i know its never perfect.
but.those slight response from Him was more than enough.and i am more scared than ever now.that it'll go away.
please don't.
i'll show You,i'll love You more.i promise.
please.if i don't deserve Your love.at least let me keep You in my heart.
please.let me.

Monday.you made me feel.scared.and that made me want to strive harder.thank you.