day 24.

the faces i miss.will be seen in a few more hours.and not virtually this time.

oh how i can't wait.

i do not know how today is going to turn out.but i know i want to make it good.

because.good is great :)

God decides.i follow.but if i try to make it good.i know He is fair in all His decisions.and He will make it good. :)

so today.i will try.will you do the same?

happy saturday it is then people :)

arrange.

end of day 23.

a full tummy makes a girl happy. :)

good dinner with dear friends.

if i was asked to rate today.i would say.11 out of 10.

everyday is a good day if you put good in front of every days.. :)

so today.

dear you,

do not ask me how much i miss you.ask me why i miss you.
do not ask me why i love you.ask me how much i love you.

words.
each time you arrange it.it gives different meanings.
just like life.
however we arrange it.it leads to different endings.

so arrange it nicely.for it'll bring you to a nice ending.

God gives us countless chances.if not grab all.grab at least one.for today.even at its almost end. :)

happy arranging life for tomorrow people :)

scared

day 23.

sunny.windy.and great.

a good friday it is.

today,i am
scared.again..

scared that the bus to happiness land is just around the corner and i would miss it.

scared that happiness is like a piece of clothing on a mannequin behind a clear glass.
visible.but not touchable.

scared that happiness is sparks of light.fast and brief.and then its gone.

and.

scared that happiness is a pleasent dream.pleasing.but never real.

yes.i get scared.like 6 billion others out there.don't you?

but how ever scared i can be.one thing i will never be scared of.

scared that God is not real.because.He is.

and His guidance is always there.and all i got to do.is just find the right way.to it.

happy friday everyone.live it whilst its still there. :)

Dani Shay - "Holding On" - (Official Music Video)

end of day 22

sometimes words can be songs.and songs can be lovely.
so here is one for the world.not from me.but from the 'she' version of bieber.
biebery i call it :)



may anyone out there who needs reaching is reached. :)

flaws

'day 22' post could not be shared in facebook.i do not know why.so do not ask me why.
humans' creations always have flaws.that is why we have God.

so if you happen to be interested or not.maybe.
click April and you'll see the posts.yes.including day 22. :)

state of mind.

day 22.

it is still dark outside.but i still think its nice.and i am still happy.

happiness is a state of mind.they say.
and iman is a gift from God.2.3 billion Muslims say.

if we relate that.

iman makes us happy.thus happiness IS a gift from God.

so if you're happy.dont think its your mind.its God.

and when you do that.you have no reason not to think of Him. :)

post-script: i am glad that a friend far from sight.is still alive.and enjoying it.
so friend.keep on living.i need you to. :)

happy thursday earthlings :)

a letter.

dear stranger,

after thorough evaluation.and research.done

please.do not think that my posts are all for you.because it is not.

i am not inlove with you.not now.and the future? God decides.i follow.hopefully.

so today stranger.when u read this.please know.these are not the posts of my endless love towards you.

u've had it.and you threw it away.far from sight.many years ago.

so please.take note.my love is to be shared to everyone.
so is this blog.

and please.
don't force the love.it might just not come this time.

sincerely,
me.

a person.

half of day 21

it started out as a feeling.

which then grew into a hope.

which then turned into a quite thought.

which then turned into a quite word.

and then that word never grew louder and louder.

it stops there.

today.let us hope somehow that is not how its going to end with us and...
God.

at least.for me.

it happened towards a person.and may it be just a person.

have you live your life half of today great peeps?

if you haven't,there is still time before it gets dark outside.

chase the time.and not let time chasing after you. :)

saturday.

day 21.

coward i am.

maybe not now neb.maybe not.

but one day.that one day will come.and all i have to do is just smile.

cause i know.God gives this for a reason. :)

so today.i learnt to not be a coward to the world.but only to God.

happy wednesday dear 'wednesdeners'

if only tomorrow is Saturday.if only.

today.

day 20.

i am happy again.

today.

5 more days and the countdown is still on.

another windy day.not rather 'springly' i judged.

but wind or no wind.rain or no rain.sunny or no sun.

feel blessed.to even get it :)

i love not how today is.i love that today is in fact a today.

happy tuesday everyone.

wednesday.please come and be kind too like tuesday today :)

Matthew Perryman Jones - Until the Last Star Falls

for you.

see.pick.keep.

half of day 19

to a dear friend,

if u lost your way.
take my map.

if u cry.
take my tissue.

if u'r hungry.
take my sandwich.

if u'r thirsty.
take my bottle.

if u need help.
take my number.

if u cut yourself.
take my plaster.

if u want to laugh.
take my voice.

if u'r cold.
take my warmth.

if u'r lonely.
take my presence.

and..

if u need a friend...

TAKE ME.

because i am still a friend

nonetheless.

so.today.i learned.
God gives you company.in so many forms.

all you need to do is see.pick.and keep.

i saw.i picked.but i didn't keep.



if you don't think this image is cute.
go
eat
shit
and
die
:)

pemalu.

day 19.

i was questioned.

why do i do the things i do now.

simply said.

i realised i have not been grateful.

my answers may not be sufficient for the world.but it is for me.

so world.ask me again.i'll give you a thousand words for it.but would that thousand words mean anything if you refuse to understand even one?

so ask me not.understand me more.

anyway gloomy monday today.matahari sangat pemalu.dan masih malu.

its ok.tomorrow will be a better day :)

post-script : you're still on top of the list.yesterday.today.and may it be tomorrow



if the real sky is not like this.you can always look at photos.life is beyond reality. :)

understand.value.live.

half of day 18.

remarks the almost half finished essay.

promise.i will share.but i can't promise that you will like it.

today
as i go around with words and more words and again more words.i stopped.

what are words? if i don't understand it.
what are words? if i don't value its meanings.
and what are words? if i don't digest it.

i've come to a conclusion.

it means nothing.
so nothing it is for 2000 words of essay
if i don't understand it.
so nothing it is for 2000 words of essay
if i don't value its meanings.
and so nothing it is for 2000 words i used
if i don't digest it.

now relate it to life and not just some random essay assignment.

what is life that is given.if we don't understand why it is given.
what is life that is given.if we don't value the gift of life itself.
and
what is life that is given.if we don't live it.

understand.value.and live. by His ways.then only you'll feel how great it is to just get the chance to live itself.let alone live it. :)

happy living the rest of sunday everyone.make it good..it is almost ending. :)

have you?

day 18.

essay.be gone!

no.i cant makes things go and come.even the most dreadful thing. ie. essays...

so today.what i will do.instead of hoping for it to be gone.i put it close to me.and make it not just an essay.but a good one.

so people.instead of taking time to throw it away.take time to make it right.because the privileges of taking anything away.and making anything comes are only on His hands.

even love.

so today.don't deny love itself.wanting it to go.or waiting it to come.because it is not your hands that make it possible.its His.


today.instead of hoping for it to be gone.i put it close to me.and make it not just love.but a good one.

so friend that i miss dearly.love is not created for lovers only.what we had was love too.friendship.

i have come into terms with it.now 6 billion people out there.have you?

questions.

end of day 17

tired.but still happy.

spent too much today but the self satisfaction of knowing none is mine is priceless.

family and friends.i'll be back soon. :)

today to a friend who is struggling to find the meaning of love and life itself.

don't worry friend.6 billion people are also in the same boat.and i am number one behind after you.

what matters is not the questions we have.but why we even have it.

love is given to us to be felt.not question.
if it feels wrong.don't question whether if its true or false love.

because if its true.it wouldn't feel wrong.

life is given to us to live it.not question.
if we're living it wrongly.don't question why should it be wrong.

because if its wrong.it is just not His ways.

so to my dearest friend and friends.dont dwell in questions.make time to answer it.because He is indeed waiting.

happy ending Saturday everyone :)

calender.

day 17

retail therapy day.not that i NEED it.

the sun is out.and a good day has arrived.

a few more days and i'll be back to where i came from.

and i am happy.again today.for no reason.

or maybe there is....

God.

happy saturday peeps.be yet wiser and happier as the calender changes dates. :)

and if you still do not know.i miss you.

6 billion plus one me.

end of day 16

a path.
to somewhere.

both matter.the path to bring somewhere.and somewhere that matters.

we all need it.i realised it today.

a dear friend is looking too.and so is 6 billion others.

my desire surpasses all that path becomes clearer each day we live and that somewhere.
becomes somewhere that gives us happiness beyond the definition of happiness itself.

so dear friend.and 6 billion people.

mark our path now.for it brings us to a good somewhere. :)

friendship.

half of day 16.

'no.you are not a friend.you are just someone i used to share my thoughts with.

so no.we are not friends.'

my self dialogue for the day.
and i am
wrong.

we are all friends.what define friendship is not how much you share.but how much you care.

so yes.you are someone i used to share my thoughts with.
but you are also still someone i care.

so.
define friendship like how God wants us to.not like how the world shapes us.

productivity kills.

day 16.

sleep less.

work more.

that is not going to happen.so long long-working-hours. :)

yesterday a nice phrase was uttered by a person.

idolize the creator not His creation.

so world.don't you fool me.cause i refuse to be a fool.

so.happy friday everyone.less sleep.more idolizing. :)